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Rex, although always rough and non-stop in action, he gets to the soft spot of my heart.  He now calls me his girlfriend, and his crush, wakaka.  I doubt this would be for very long, before he has his first real crush.  But as a mommy, even a little bit of this from my little boy melts me.

Date with Tulia

I went out to a Ten Ren's Tea colouring date with Tulia last night.  This is one of the first girl dates with my special girl and I feel really cool to be her "first date", haha.  My little girl is really growing up fast.  We now can go out together.  She was really excited last night, ordering her own drink (and finishing it too), ordered her favourite crispy chicken, sang along to her favourite songs and even danced a bit. She was very chatty, probably due to excitement.  Of course we were colouring too.  She was very encouraging, (reassuring that I can actually colour within the lines).  She said one day when I die, she'll cry for a day, and she will miss my hug the most.  Sense of touch, I have learnt over the years, that hugs do magic.  I am an introvert, unable to express many of my feelings.  However, I am surrounded by extroverts (Tulia & Rex) who are not-at-all shy in asking for intimate hugs.  Motherhood is tough, it is tiring, it is discouraging when I get nowhere without a scream or a scold; but it has given me a strong bond with my two little monsters.  Tulia, although I know you grow faster than I can anticipate, although I know you will be spending less and less time with us as you have friends and develop your own life, please remember we are always here, for you, whenever, wherever.  I hope you and I will always be friends.  I hope I can do my role as being there for you all the time now, and transition into my changing role of being less and less important in your life well.  It is tough to give up myself for the kids.  As I adjust to being needed, it is even harder to let go.